Creative writing.

Had a very good, strange emotional day. Had to do things out of my comfort zone this week and eat some humble pie. Feel releaved, okayish, happy and angry all in one. So I really need to write and let it all out into one big creative writing mess....

'I was a lesson I have learned. I was lost and concerned, battling away night and day hoping to change and wanting to say. I held the keys to my soul. I had to let my demons roll. Fighting, chatting and making things last. I pushed away and landed on smeard  glass. I feel as if I have the will to learn. Why can't i just see that no one was concerned. Forgiven thrown around like such an easy word. Anger builds and trust is learned. I fight with myself. I love myself and it's true. I'm glad i lost the demon that played. My final songs of mistakes. I have a life worth living it is true. But my flaws are still clear. I can manage them and thats for sure. Pour me a river and cry me a fall. I'm done with hating after all. I'm forgiven and happy but angry still lasts. I can now finally let go about everything from my past......... one few words left to say. I have found my nights and my days. Eager falling. Lessons crawling. Beside me stopping. For once I'm not left for dead and my tears still fall. Let my guilt leave I'm finally free. So here I go.. just watch me.'