True

Funny

Haha look at my dad and my brother

My dad at Andrews wedding reception haha

It's like my life story in a song and it comforts me!

I was lost now I'm found
I'm sustained by the sound
Of the angels singing me to sleep
While my feet are leaving the ground
Am I dead? Or am I dreaming instead?
A cornucopia of opiates have flooded my head

I'm insane, I am smart
All it takes, is a spark, to ignite my bad intentions
And do what I do best to your heart
Don't be fooled, I was raised by the wolves
Now the moon hangs in full, so you know I won't
Play by the rules

I will never spill
Spill my blood for you
You have let me down
One too many times

Someway, somehow, we've fallen out
Caught in between my enemies
No way not now, I won't back down
I draw the line at you and me
You're what I started, now disregarded
One day they'll see, it was always me

Due to mistakes, I have made to the state
I am trapped inside a Dillinger
Diligently thinking of ways to get out of this god awful place
I have learned that my fate is something I can't escape so

Sound the alarm, what I've said from the start
Is I'll never let your system break me down or tear me apart
Don't be fooled, I was raised by the wolves
Now the moon hangs in full, so you know I won't
Play by the rules

I will never spill
Spill my blood for you
You have let me down
One too many times

Someway, somehow, we've fallen out
Caught in between my enemies
No way not now, I won't back down
I draw the line at you and me
You're what I started, now disregarded
One day they'll see, it was always me

Oh, this is the end of you
This is where I draw the line
And I won't lose
This war is mine
Oh!

Spill my blood for you
One too many times

Someway, somehow, we've fallen out
Caught in between my enemies
No way not now, I won't back down
I draw the line at you and me
You're what I started, now disregarded
One day they'll see, it was always me

One day they'll see
It was always me

It was always me

Born

I was born to set this roof on fire what's that I can't hear, your names almost dier, they say the past is set in stone wait let me get out my axe as you scream when your alone,

the truth fades and you make a lie that stays in your mind for days upon days. Sell me a lie and il take it and walk on by and if I never see your face again you better watch out cause I'm bursting out its ashame,

didn't know one tell you im evil try and spell it backwords and that's what I'm doing live-in through this pain as I watch those around me cry out for my name

il take an axe to your roof and come out the door till you see me again il cry never more

Sneak preview

Here is a little sneak peak of my home :)

A new way of writing (try and guess what I'm doing)

It's silly how I let the small things get to me when it's simply the small things. They are not big at all but lead on to big things so I seem to think. Thinking is something I do a lot these days and I wouldn't have expected my over thinking to stop by now, I never would have expected to be in the situation I am right now, now, future and past is something I need to come to terms with someday I like to try and build myself around the present and living in the moment not past or future. Future is something you make for yourself, it's something you plan for, planning is hard but it can be fun. If you had said to me a year ago id be where I am now

Truth is im keeping my cards to my chest right now. But having hope. Sometimes I feel I am not strong I am weak. But I'm stronger than I give myself credit sometimes. Sometimes it's hard to keep strong when you are used to being weak and running from your past or what the future might bring, it brings it's good and bad things but..... But it's not all bad, if you live the way you want to. It just feels like my brain is on a rollacoster. Just the other day I thought to myself its like my life is a tv show. Like the truenman show. Weird huh, with myself i can be weak but more strong, with my family and friends I can do anything. I just feel I have so many feelings to let out. Not bad feelings or bitter but happy. You have your happy and sad days. It depends how you handle them? And why am I happy? Because I'm making the people who care about me proud I'm moving to ayr and going to get a job and my own place

Im going down a hard and tough road but I will go through my hell before i reach my heaven.

I dream to feel the inner peace sourounding me and feel the love of a blade of grass in a park. Smelling the nature and hearing the sounds beside me. I think I'm close to it, I'm sure I am.


What can I say I'm myself, if I wasn't I would have crumbled by now. I don't know If il ever be able to make the ones who care for me proud to 100% but I'm going to give it my all I'm going to try my hardest because I'm not going to let the people who want to see me fail win, no fucking way. If they hate me and have an issue with me then it's there loss because they are far far far far away from reaching complete happiness. And in my views it's the only way you can be happy to not hate but love the people in your life, I'm not saying love your enemies but.... Just don't .....care? Because having no opinion on them is the perfect response to them, if they are obsessed by you then let them be ca ca ca copy cats.

I think i will make people proud because I'm proud of myself and that's the only persons opinion i need.

Ps. I don't smoke anymore or even drink. I gave it up because I don't want to be a slave to the booze company's or the tobacco ...1-0 me:)

Any who I feel great I wrote this in my blog, it will help me remind myself in years to come how good I am. Arrogant ? Fuck yes.

I even have my happy song that picks me up when I have fallen ...

It's time to hold my head high and face this as a man

I will be strong and take it like a man, I will say a prayer and hope you understand, if i fall and can't take, when i feel my heart is about to break, just know i love you and want you to be safe

New house motherfuckers

I move in to this mother fucker in a few weeks it's in Ayr which is the west of Scotland :) il be closer to America hahaha

So happy

So happy with life right now have my friends and family and that special person. Moving soon into a nice flat life is great :)

And that's the story of my life

Ever since I can remember my heart has been so tender
People here people there telling me how special I was there
Ever since I can remember I've soaked through the lies of the liars and made them hate my name
Like they were setting me on fire... What can I say the devil loves a tryer

It's like the story of my life is being told as I grasp your attention with my lyrics are so cold, it's like ever since I can remember I was promised to be told the truth of my past sins
Hear my music as it makes you grin

Being told to weak to do that being cried for whenever Ive lied
Never walking always running running from the problems in my head as they came at me I was shot dead

It's like all I can ever remember that a lesson was put in place to make me see my selfish ways as time goes by I'm writing to the ones who have said goodbye

Ever since I can remember I was cold in the summer and warm on a holding December 

I am
I'm to speak with you right hear to make you see only clear I may not be near or even here but please promise me not to fear as I speak softly in your ever burning ear.

It's like all I can ever remember as my words are fading and the dephs of reliality come clear I'm a siren that got away as I craved the attention from your heart I miss nothing but remember widely that I was simply too crazed to go insane

I wrote and sent

So fill a hole with a decision. You just keep on remernision 
Foul talk and weak lines creek, waiting for that person to take you off your feet
You bury your head and try and make a stand. Then you realise this wasn't nor ever planned

Got to get to grips with the truth facing you. They broke your heart, why act sad you knew they would, chanting your name across the finishing line. Wasn't it just in black and white no hint of a grey. Oh tell me anything you'd like to say?

You filled a hole inside there heart as they set a part your awkward ways
Now you can only burn no way out cant right your wrongs

Mis conseptitin as I'm remernision through a clear white day
Got to make a run for it it might all be ok

Morals are nothing as your head is burning turn a lock inside and try and hide but I swear to you
It wasn't true as they led you a stray

Gotta get out gotta walk gotta kill this ever turning clock
Making sense of a decision, lack of concentrating will leave your foul mouthed head a part
Grab my attention and let the sky burn. We burn for you. Who will carry save you through
You dug a hole to get here but your heart is set in fear, from who is it we are fearing. I can't take it I'm leaving

Greek Restaurant, including plate smashing !

Here it is, enjoy !

Photoshoot

Here are some pictures of the photoshoot I did with JD hope you like








(all credit for picture taking go's to JD & JDphotographyGlasgow
Picture editing rights go Mandyhunter)

Wedding/Greece pictures :)

Here are a few pictures of the wedding and santorini in general