Friday, 25 March 2016

This is accurate...

Thursday, 24 March 2016

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I believe I'm just like you, I believe I'll make it through, it's hard to see at times like this. I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up...

About to practise mindfulness before DBT. DBT starts at 25 past. 

Wish me luck?
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So just keep holding on...

Tuesday, 22 March 2016

Hi

Hi everyone, I have good news
I've booked my first driving lesson for the 5th of April... I'm going to be "behind the wheel" 

I hope I do well, I think I will. I'm pretty confident to be honest. I got thinking today and I really miss Crash bandicoot. He is my video game hero. Some
People are sonic, Spyro or mario, not me. Crash fan since 1994. 

That's why I had a post today saying you and me both crash... I don't have a PlayStation so I can't play...

Speaking of game consoles I'm getting rid of my Xbox 360 and I think I will get a PlayStation 4... Xbox just doesn't work for me. The remote isn't my cup of tea..

I was meant to go to a photography class today but it got cancelled... So since Kim has been working her arse off at placement, I'm going to make steak and chips. 

I like my sirloin steak rare by the way, nice and bloody, I like the blood, I know it might be weird.. Maybe I'm lacking iron? Oh god!

I'm going to take a wee break from blogger the now. But will be back. So why not go through my old posts? I actually get a few people who do that. That's what they are there for.. Stalkers lol

Bye fuckers

You and Me both.


You and me both Crash, you and me both.

Thursday, 17 March 2016

All I need.

And I'm tired of not fitting in, true friends is my final wish just let me be myself and make it through. 

I have tried SO hard to be a better soul. I have worked so hard at making myself whole. 

And through it all my better years are still ahead my mind is clear just trust me when I say I'm in control.

...

I believe I'm just like you, I believe I'll make it through its hard to see at times like this. But I'm not giving in, but I'm not giving in.

Happy st ....

Oh....

Wednesday, 16 March 2016

Having a latte.

I just got back from Kimmi's college. She asked me to drop off her book for revision so I did... I thought I fancy a wee latte.. And a blueberry muffin.. So I done it. I haven't updated in ages. I just haven't wanted to to be honest.

I'm still in DBT and I have learned I am quick to criticise myself.. I feel I could be doing better. But I'm getting told I'm doing amazing work.. I finished my first modual.. Now it's onto emotional regulation.. Last week we learned about positive reinforcement... That was easy I could have done it with my eyes closed..

The weekend my favourite team lost our cup final... And I've been il for weeks... Back and fourth to doctors and he just says same thing, not a virus so couldn't give me meds so I had to buy my own...

I got a haircut, it's much shorter. So I will show you that later... I've got another 10/11 months of DBT... I'm also going to be doing my driving lessons on the side now. Also as from my previous post a boy I knew died. He was such a nice laddie tae me... He kicked my ass at Fifa too... I think I got drunk with him and Liam and others on scotch once.. That was the night his mate bit the head off a cricket LOL!

I also saw some people from my past yesterday, freaked me out but as we have learned in DBT it's the past and we stay in the present... He was nice but.. I think I'm just going to leave that friendship in the past.... Maybe in the future it can be different?

I wish I could give you guys updates of my life without my typing. It's so boring to type! 

My shoe has a hole in it.. Note to self buy new dcs.....

So
Doing DBT
While learning theory work for driving
Book driving lessons
And
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Learn to improve my mindfulness.

Bye






Thursday, 10 March 2016

Rest in Peace Matthew.

Matthew, these are just a few words for you. Even though we were not friends  and we only met once or twice I just wanted to pay my respects, the year is 2011 and its around May/juneish time. I go through to Livingston with a mutual friend and I am really nervous because I didn't know how to make friends, you and the lads were kind enough to speak to me and make me feel welcomed. I will never forget that. We played online on Xbox a few times aswell. My only regret is we didn't hang out more. A lot of people will miss you and whatever you were going through you are at peace now. Thank you for being kind to me and thank you for welcoming me. Rest in peace Matthew Elmer and God bless,

- Steven x