Okay.. Okay... So I am writing this at 19:46 & I just wanted to not so much vent. But just clear My mind. First of Jim (Landlord) is fine. So he came for Rent today and we chatted, Chatted about life, homes and work.
I said to him if You ever need a hand I could help you. I don't want money of the rent or cash. I just genuinely want to help the guy. He has been such a nice Guy to Kimmi and I. He also thanked me for wondering how he was doing, which is nice.
I have recently wanted to write a song but I have a few problems. You see when I write lyrics, I have a lot to say in My lyrics. I have so many feelings and words stored up there. And the problem ? well that's just it. I have too many lyrics, too many things I want to say. Also the other problems I'm not good at creating Melodys. I really, really, really struggle with that.
I also went to the pharmacy today to pickup my perscription's ; Bedranol & Tamepam. They work well. and calm me, which is nice. I have an appointment pretty soon, well Two appointments, one on the 5th of July then the 25th. So i am a bit nervous about this.
I don't really know what to say. I'm scared i will say the wrong thing and the person helping me might think the wrong thing. Then I am truly fucked. But i am sure things will work out fine. they always do. thing's always do work out fine
I don't know how many times me and immi have been struggling for money or had troubles paying rent and some how against all the odds, we have been fine. came out of it and everything is fine. I think when things are all set in done, your problems are not as big as you make them out to be. Like when you are worrying about having gas or having food in the house, at winter yes it is a problem. but is it really a big problems?
there's always a answer and the answer to that would be, hot water bottle.
I don't know, I have a lot of time to think... I don't even know what to say. All i know is that this blogpost was meant to be random and about what i am feeling right now. I don't feel anything really. Worrying about if Kimmi will be okay. but a part from that, no i am fine. happy, content. I was looking after her last night making sure she was comfortable. also cleaned the kitchen, living room and even mopt.
I like it when the house is nice, you feel so much pride. like you have done something good and when you look at it you think i did it. if Kimmi ruins my hardwork i will shout at her lol. Also i like it when Jim is here for rent and he can see that Kimmi & I look after this place and it isn't a shit house with Cigarette ash everywhere (like my old bedroom in Edinburgh)
Speaking of Cigarette's, I got one of those e cigarettes today. It's like a real Cigarette apart from it's thicker (that's what she said) and plastic. but i like the smell of cigs. I don't know why, is that strange to like that? eww i'm a weirdo. but I thought to myself i managed to stop smoking cigarette's and moved on to roll ups. so why can't i move from roll ups to e cigs? still getting nicotine, i'm just not killing myself anymore.
I really can't wait for the football season to start up. Every weekend i will be going to Edinburgh or around Scotland to see Hibs. I can't wait to go to the different citys. I really want to go up North I love it in the highlands and islands, i wish i could move up there one day. Maybe i will one day.. if Kimmi wants to come that is. No but Hibs have been drawn against the winners of Drog and Malmo. It's kinda weird how an edinburgh team are playing a team who play in a place I have been to.. sadly I haven't got the Money to go to Sweden or Ireland. But I hope we play Drog. They are Irish and hibs have Irish Connects. Plus Drog are the under dogs. and i will always support the under dog.
Oh yeah I also wanted to mention to Jim about getting a dog. but I knew he would have said no, he did when we first moved in to the flat he said no dogs.... which is sad. but that's life. I feel like I am a boring person for not talking much on here. I just really don't know what to say. Should I start making video's?
Leave a comment down bellow too if I should start making videos also I don't get many comments on here so i sure would appreciate a comment or two.
Really looking forward to seeing My dad on Friday...
Anyway i'll love you and leave you guys,
Steviie
Fuckers.
I said to him if You ever need a hand I could help you. I don't want money of the rent or cash. I just genuinely want to help the guy. He has been such a nice Guy to Kimmi and I. He also thanked me for wondering how he was doing, which is nice.
I have recently wanted to write a song but I have a few problems. You see when I write lyrics, I have a lot to say in My lyrics. I have so many feelings and words stored up there. And the problem ? well that's just it. I have too many lyrics, too many things I want to say. Also the other problems I'm not good at creating Melodys. I really, really, really struggle with that.
I also went to the pharmacy today to pickup my perscription's ; Bedranol & Tamepam. They work well. and calm me, which is nice. I have an appointment pretty soon, well Two appointments, one on the 5th of July then the 25th. So i am a bit nervous about this.
I don't really know what to say. I'm scared i will say the wrong thing and the person helping me might think the wrong thing. Then I am truly fucked. But i am sure things will work out fine. they always do. thing's always do work out fine
I don't know how many times me and immi have been struggling for money or had troubles paying rent and some how against all the odds, we have been fine. came out of it and everything is fine. I think when things are all set in done, your problems are not as big as you make them out to be. Like when you are worrying about having gas or having food in the house, at winter yes it is a problem. but is it really a big problems?
there's always a answer and the answer to that would be, hot water bottle.
I don't know, I have a lot of time to think... I don't even know what to say. All i know is that this blogpost was meant to be random and about what i am feeling right now. I don't feel anything really. Worrying about if Kimmi will be okay. but a part from that, no i am fine. happy, content. I was looking after her last night making sure she was comfortable. also cleaned the kitchen, living room and even mopt.
I like it when the house is nice, you feel so much pride. like you have done something good and when you look at it you think i did it. if Kimmi ruins my hardwork i will shout at her lol. Also i like it when Jim is here for rent and he can see that Kimmi & I look after this place and it isn't a shit house with Cigarette ash everywhere (like my old bedroom in Edinburgh)
Speaking of Cigarette's, I got one of those e cigarettes today. It's like a real Cigarette apart from it's thicker (that's what she said) and plastic. but i like the smell of cigs. I don't know why, is that strange to like that? eww i'm a weirdo. but I thought to myself i managed to stop smoking cigarette's and moved on to roll ups. so why can't i move from roll ups to e cigs? still getting nicotine, i'm just not killing myself anymore.
I really can't wait for the football season to start up. Every weekend i will be going to Edinburgh or around Scotland to see Hibs. I can't wait to go to the different citys. I really want to go up North I love it in the highlands and islands, i wish i could move up there one day. Maybe i will one day.. if Kimmi wants to come that is. No but Hibs have been drawn against the winners of Drog and Malmo. It's kinda weird how an edinburgh team are playing a team who play in a place I have been to.. sadly I haven't got the Money to go to Sweden or Ireland. But I hope we play Drog. They are Irish and hibs have Irish Connects. Plus Drog are the under dogs. and i will always support the under dog.
Oh yeah I also wanted to mention to Jim about getting a dog. but I knew he would have said no, he did when we first moved in to the flat he said no dogs.... which is sad. but that's life. I feel like I am a boring person for not talking much on here. I just really don't know what to say. Should I start making video's?
Leave a comment down bellow too if I should start making videos also I don't get many comments on here so i sure would appreciate a comment or two.
Really looking forward to seeing My dad on Friday...
Anyway i'll love you and leave you guys,
Steviie
Fuckers.
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