A little tiny bity about Me

I plan to write about me in this post, What kind of person i see myself, how i see life and how i see other's around me, maybe it'l make you see me for who i really am

I come from a city where tourists rome the streets in need for tartan packaged shortbread (joanna will like that part) and i live in a small surberb where men dress in addidas, nike tracksuit bottoms thinking they are black.

So when a kid walking down the streets in tight jeans and a band t shirt, it kinda ruins the reputation of the street where i stay in don't you think haha?

Just the other day i was playing Caught like a fly by Falling in reverse, one of them shouted "Steven, Steven Can you make that go any louder" .... I looked at him and said YEAH and turnt it up more......

I should have said can you get any fatter? but didn't... wankers....

I wouldn't say i am happy where i stay, far from it, my dream is to move away from Scotland, the uk in generel and move somewhere else... maybe sweden? it would be really nice, since Joanna and Martina are here :)

But let's get started, i would say i can't control my feelings sometimes, i try and do the right thing but some how don't and then get tempted in to hurting myself emotionally, that's fine i guess. but i just need to start thinking with a little bit more logic...

I have learned i do not need a relationship to be happy, i guess i just need that conection with someone, someone to talk shit to, someone to laugh with, and i have my best friend for that joanna and i have martina... who i like a little bit more as a friend, and yes im going to be honest, i do want something more with her, but want to meet her first...Martina if your reading, shut up, you know it's true.

Anyway. i would also say i hold grudges. i seem to pitty myself, no one else will haha?

But Martina said something to me yesterday really interesting, I said to her, my parents told me and admitted it when i was born they didn't love me for 1 year, because i was sick in hospital... And Martina said maybe thats why you need to feel loved, because i didn't have that as a baby

Sad yes, but i can understand where my parents where coming from, no one want's to bury theyre baby...

anyway this is a failed attempt at writing my about me huh haha?

i dunno, im just me i guess, im fucked up and hyper, and say whats on my mind, i trust few people a part from Joanna and maybe Martina... to an extent at least... but i trust Joanna with my life, sorry Martina.. im not over the whole Jayden thing lol

But yeah, people who read this know me and i guess already know who i am... no what picture to put on this blog ... hmmm oh yes this

my home made pasta LOL