God, if you are above.

God cannot save my soul

It's straight to hell for me, I know

And when I get there,

At least I've found a place to call my home

They say the truth will set you free

Then why am I still here?

I've got no truth left, can't you see?

Am I making myself clear?

Resolution, no solution

God, If You Are Above...

I fear that one day the whole world will disappear

And if it does, well, I have lived my life the way that I could!

The way that I should!

The spirit's stuck between two roads

And waiting there on me

The first path is the way to go

The life I wanna lead

The second road's my crazy path

The darkest ones I try to mask

The drugs, the guns, the lies, the lows

The dreams I had

I'm waking up!

Resolution, no solution

God, If You Are Above...

I fear that one day the whole world will disappear

And if it does, well, I have lived my life the way that I could!

The way that I should!

Don't tell me I'm not worth the time!

I will be fine

All these prayers have gone unanswered...

Where were you?

Where were you?!

God, If You Are Above...

I fear that one day the whole world will disappear

And if it does, well, I have lived my life the way that I could!

The way that I should!

God, If You Are Above...

I fear that one day the whole world will disappear

And if it does, well, I have lived my life the way that I could!

The way that I should!

Meet...

Mila Rose Perry.

Andrew and Kirsty and baby Perry

I have grew up and hated Andrew, but I feel a bridge has been built. I've grew up and loved Kirsty, she was actually my
friend at school. I have never seen Andrew give a genuine smile and this photo makes me so happy because it is not put on, it is not fake and it is so natrual and bare. They didn't know I was taking a picture. I give you the picture Kimmi took. I'm so proud of them all. 

.....

We have a GIRL!!! A baby beautiful perfect girl! 

Crazy uncle Steve!

So happy!!

I'm an uncle!!!

Hello baby perry!

We haven't been told the sex of the baby because we are to wait until we meet him or her, I think the baby's a boy!

Very happy for Andrew and Kirsty!

A healthy 6.1 baby! 

What a year.

What a year this has been, my dad getting the all clear for cancer, getting jack in my house, realising my dream job, getting ready to move to a nice home with a garden, making amends with Andrew and a niece or nephew to meet on Friday. 

This year hasn't been all good, gotta admit we were upset leaving downstairs. Losing scottish indepdence,, arguments, fall outs, losing friends and making new friends. 

It tells you life isn't perfect. But what is, I'm not and never will be. For example i try to update as much as possible, but due to laziness and insomnia and my busy schedual I can't.

Next year will be even better, because I will pfficaely start my exams in dog training. Me and Kim will live in a new house with stairs and a garden... We will try to be near Edinburgh family to be a great uncle to my niece or nephew...

I've seen my favourite football team relagated, felt my heart breaking in my chest with some situations, felt let down and kicked. But here I am..

I've had the confidence to figuire out what I wanted to do. I chose not to be rain washed by media into not voting for scottish indepdence. I stood up for someone who was innocent and no one believed them...

I won money on gambling and even taught jack how to stand on his bag legs.

I learned dogs are NOT dominant and have as much simularirys with wolves as we do with chimps....

I'm hopeful of a better year. I'm excited for another January. I'm going to e the best dog trainer in Scotland. And no one can stop me. I've got my confidence back and it's never leaving morherfuckers. So if anyone stands in my way il head butt them glasgow style and stand tall

My favourite quote of the year

"My heart may be heavy but my conscince is clear. I tried to free Scotland, I showed no fear"

If you want to know how I feel right now I feel like Bruce from the film "filth" set in Edinburgh by the way...( http://youtu.be/vbPdQmi3s0M ) I'm high on adrenaline and excited for friday!!!

And one day I will have a child of my own, and I will give it a warm house and a loving puppy and I will pass on my legacy and experiences. I will survive and I am worth enough to be loved.

I'm insane and wear my heart on my sleeve and I will pour my feelings into my hands and won't be scared to take the risk. I will stand up for those who canny fight. I will be a good person. I love myself. Am I vain? Possibly. But if I don't love me, then how am i deserving of love from others.

Goodbye you wonderful people

I've chosen life

Merry Christmas and a happy new year

FUCKERS.

I'm so happy 'cause today

I've found my friends ...

They're in my head

I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you ...

We've broken our mirrors 

Sunday morning is everyday for all I care ...

And I'm not scared

Light my candles, in a daze

'Cause I've found god...