Wednesday, 6 April 2016

Update I came crawling back

Please please take me back blogger I'm sorry that I needed space... Enough of that! Hi blog spot you fucker? Miss me? My time out only lasted what a week? Haha well have I got news for you? It is 5-33 in the morning and I am tired and I need to be up at 9 to leave for DBT, library, doctors to get meds and take back some overly priced clothes that are well, shit? 

But I came on here to address something well I've already done it, I wrote a poem of some fucked up sort, I don't know exactly why I decided to get up out of my bed and lay on my couch in the living room at this time in the morning with panellope (she's my e cig, well you think of a better fucking name?!) anyhoo I did and well I done it because i well have came a long way and I can feel myself growing as a person. It's fucked up, if my parents or friends or Kimmi doesn't text me back within five minutes I automatically assume they hate me? Mental huh, but I'm working on that and well recently thanks to DBT I have learned to question my whacky idea's that they are all going to fucking leave me. I say to that son bitch Stevie, Steven listen they could be taking a shit, well not exactly that but it's understable they are busy.... I could say a lot more but that's enough DBT talk for now

Yesterday or the day before, Tuesday.. Yes that's it I drove a car. I done my first driving lesson and guess what it was so easy, I found the bite and by my third try I got the hang of it. I made turns, had hazards (old woman with her ugly yappy dog) and well rain? I won't lie the only thing that was of concern was my eye sight. I JUST just was able to read the license plate number. So any other issues I'm going to get stronger lenses. Kimmi is visiting her family in Ayrshire and I have the house to myself. I've been recklessly watching bates motel on Netflix and it's amazing!!!! My lists to watch is continueing breaking bad, walking dead, life below zero and only fools and horses. My new thing on YouTube is to listen to fucked up haunted storys before bed and watch abandoned buildings on YouTube that's fun. Also to do list is to read up on dog training and practise my mindfulness mediation. I tried relaxing music on Spotify but I couldn't sleep because of it and my awesome poem thingy. Oh I went to the football on Tuesday night, it was cold very cold, hibs were losing so I left at halftime and got the bus to the city centre and spoke in polish to a Burger King worker.. Well I said thanks in polish and that made him a happy bee... 

Probably going to take another break from blogger (sorry blogger it's not you its me, well it is you I'm amazing) lol.. Wtf? Am a talking tae Ma sel noo? (Bit of scots for you) but my next driving lesson with Gavin is on the 25th looking forward to that. My dream is to take Mila in the back of the car to the beach with Jack and travel to the highlands (where they speak Scottish Gaelic and i don't speak Scottish Gaelic by the way it's like old Norwegian or some shit) with Kimmi and camp with an open fire and midges (Google midges) biting us.. So with all that said and wrote
Bye!

Fuckers.

Red
Top by the way, red top

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