DBT.

So I've been to two sessions of DBT and I find it interesting and kind of helpful. The  homework is very difficult. But I believe I am making progress. I bought a folder and poly pockets and have everything in their little place. 

My folder is black by the way. I've been learning about mindfulness and basically noticing things around me. I really find it hard to concentrate and take in new information but really want to do this so badly. I am but still having difficulty doing it.

Next week we learn about interpersonal relationships and communication I believe. 

I said to Kimmi, it's crazy how you've just learned all these things without really thinking about it. I haven't. Don't you find that weird? She agreed that she had learned them and I haven't so much but believes I can. And I do, if truth be told blogger, my self confidence when it comes to learning is on the floor. Covered in leaves and mud... I want to learn, I want believe I can. But I just have so many negatives around my mind. I have no confidence... But I'm sure with time I will get the results I want

It's like Joanne says (she's my DBT therapist) everyone in the group are on their own personal journey and path ways. You are too Stevie) and she's right.

Yesterday me and Kimmi were looking around at banks yesterday. We want to open up a saving account... Thing is we are really bad reckless spenders. Me worse.. I went to asda to spend £8 on an hdmi cable.. I ended up spending £60 on candy.. Spending makes me happy, powerful, hyper... But whenever I have it in my hands after words. I feel sad, bad, upset and angry at myself. So anyway moving on

The account you have to take a blue piece of paper (I don't know what it is called) and since it is a couple's both of us have to be their with ID and write our signatures.. So I can't just go to the bank lift the money by myself... So it's good. Always good to have a rainy day fund... 

I need to calm down. One thing I have been doing is making all these plans.. Learning to drive. Taking a part time college course (German, I want to learn German so I can watch German to shows on my tv.. Possibly Finnish/Swedish too) I like the Finnish and Swedish Tv channels. Tv6 always  shows the Simpsons and scrubs but with  Swedish subtitles and oddly enough an advert of gambling with christiano Ronaldo..

Anyway we have been watching a lot of Skins... I've been watching making a murderer on Netflix.. Only two episodes but it's interesting. Anyway I'm ending this blogpost for now.. I might even take a break from blogging... Have some pictures 

Wish me luck...