I am trying.

I'm trying to be a better person, being the epitome of a true underdog.
I'm always trying to look at people in different way's. Trying to visualise what i do want and truly need
I'm not trying to be a saint. I'm not trying to be a savour. I'm trying to be the person who i know i can be
I can be that person. So why try and ruin it by saying or doing something dumb or childish.
I'm trying to be a better person, giving the under dog the chance. giving the girl who has glass's and spots
a hello back. Giving the guy who just wants to fit in at the rock scene advice. giving that homeless person my last 20 pence. Looking at my friends in a different way and seeing the quality's they have.
Trying to help people out with advice i know i can give

So tell me, why do i still feel like i am failing, even when i am TRYING to be that good person i know i can be, because' i am not trying hard enough? or am i trying even hard enough that my brain has quickly gone into over drive that i can feel the weight of the world on my shoulders.

Something is missing from my life, i know it. but i am following my dreams. I'm going into acting soon. and getting a flat in Glasgow.

I drank a fith of vodka, dare me to drive - eminem is the king, by the way.

I am just sick of all these fakeness of people i seem to run into, you know, the way the act, the things they say, they don't have peace of mind. The think they do, but the really don't i'm sick of how people always complain about just random shit, and actually think people want to listen. I am complaining, but am i expecting you to listen? fuck no

I couldn't give a fucking toss what you thought. i am writing this to get my feelings out of this, so when i am old and grey i can see how much i have improved as a human.

for fuck sake. another thing, why is it when you have a bad day, people think that you are over reacting.

I'm sorry but if they money i have been waiting for to come through for 6 fucking days still hasn't came through, i will be pissed. fuck you.

You're all like sleeping dogs that won't see the goodness in people, well some people will but will ignore it really. nah i kid. I know there are good people out there. it just frustraights me.

I'm not fucking saint. i know that but i will try and be the best person i know i already can be