It takes a bigger man to stand up and admit the awful truth .

I decided to do a very special thing tonight. I couldn't sleep because i was thinking about the people i had done wrong, The things i have said the ways i have acted, During my past i have been a major hazard to myself. and for others, i've been selfish, dramatic and at times a bit insane, not the good insane but the bad insane. So i wrote a list of people who i have done wrong. and who i haven't apologised too yet, and i decided to get in contact with them through facebook, not explaining why i done it, because i really don't have anything to gain, i just thought that it would be nice for them to get the apology they deserve. Now i'm not looking to get back into there life

Far from it, but what i am looking for is not for them to hold any grudges, and it's true that there will be people who dislike you for being the person you already are. but there will be people like me, who refuse to go through life with hate in there heart. because it just gets them down.

Anyway to the people i just apologised. and it's funny how time can make you reflect on moments and think what the fuck was i actually doing at this point? I guess i am growing up in a way. but i will always be myself. i only want to change the bad things, but it got me thinking and for you guys think about this. if you are who you are and these bad things u want to change unless they are over the top (like being an addict, being selfish) is it really worth changing to suit others?

Some people are ignorant and stubborn and even though they have lost three jobs because of there personality and attiude well attiude lets say that. they still dont see the way they act are killing there friends they had and even family.

I now have a new way of thinking not fully but a tip anyway.. never look back on your past only look at the moment you live in, sure look back at the past for the good times. but whats the point on thinking of the sad times.

It's funny i learn this when 4 months ago i should have learnt it. or even a year ago... anyway im out bye:)