For a Change

It's better to have something you want rather then what You need, but what if you need something so badly, that you'll do anything to have it. what if you dream so much of something you need but you stop and think. Wait i already have it.

Today hasn't been an easy day for me, i had to do something that i thought i wasn't able to do, i had to go somewhere, where i was frightend of going. But why ? not why as in i went there, but why did i need to go there. Well i didn't need to i had a choice. But i believe i made the right choice in this matter. I invested in my future so to speak

Right now everything has changed, and i am trying to pick from the positives. I am trying to keep hope, but. What happens when the hope leaves, when you start to believe your biggest fears. that they come to light and everything you once had is out of sight. So to speak

I can't let the past get me down anymore, i need to see more clearly and look at the facts and not over think the facts. i need to be the person who deep down i already am, and with time i will get that. But will they still be there waiting for me, how do i really know? not the problems. But the people who swore they would stay
and swore that they would be better in the end

I really don't know what i'd do if i managed to fuck this up again and left bitter and twisted in my own shallow weakened thoughts. i need and can only be positive. i want them back, i want to be that person again

anymore thoughts on my mind, nah, continue staying focused and well hanged.

thank you