Lights off - yes
Candle burning -yes
In bed - yes
Emotions running high - err maybe?
These all come from my head, all
At once. Let's start this, fuckers
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He walked outside not sure of alive, he went on walking with fear by his side. He stopped in the rain to tell his tale. About his life and how he de railed. Whispers from the puddles and screaming from the rails. He could tell that his life had went far from hail... Stones on going and going He walked along the busy roads feeling the cold air, feeling the the breeze and living away, following the lights to lead him above, above from the secrets burnt inside his head. You better run and tell everyone as well. I can't stall I'm
Blessed from hell. I wear a badge across my neck, I wear the truth that keeps me tick. Tock ticking tick rocking away. Keep me sane give me pills keep me calm drive me to hell. His secret came out would you like to know it. Sometimes he's just a lost boy looking for his mum. Strike that Infact I feel detached, I
Love you I hate you I need you I hear you I run from the truth like a bullet from a gun. Oh fuck it's getting serious this time and not even peace can calm my head a crazy little boy searching for his cell. The one nearest the living fucking hell. But he woke up. He wakes! He wakes inside his head. Was it his mis dealings that left him for dead. Bury me, change me, love me, hate you. Fuck you! I don't even know the story of the rain, when it crashes down near my flame. I feel the power of love, I hear my muse sing down from above. I can not run and I accept the past but please try and understand I can make it as a man. I'm worth more then you know and something will show... Tick tick tock... Feel me at ease I love to please. But confrontation is something so hard. I hate it I run away. I run away. I run away. You got your opinions on me but who knows maybe I'm the one who is truly free because in the past I didn't know. That 666 was for a group show. I gotta give up this hell. But it's so fun to follow these shadows down a living hole, down a living hell. I'm so happy yay! I feel sorrow as well. I'm so happy with life kinda sad but true who's knows .. Soon I could be like, um.. You?
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My writings are to bet negativity out, to mindfully accept them. To notice they are there. You can't change having bad and good thoughts, it's okay to feel sad and happy. Sometimes we need to take our sadness out in lyrics, even happiness... This isn't a creative write by the way. I'm just trying to let you know I was sad when I wrote this but now happy because I fully accept that I was sad. Now I can listen to the rain with my candle.. Window open... And go to DBT at 9:50.
Good night blog
Love to all my followers
Even to the fuckers.
Another reason to be happy I get to see her today
I always buy her white chocolate buttons... I don't want her always eating them though.. Maybe I should buy her something else.. Milk chocolate buttons? I see Mila every Thursday and Friday now when she goes to spend time with granny (my mum..) she brings so much light to the dark sky's.. She's amazing..
Goodnight everyone
Fuckers.
