It only took me nine years but.

I am now an official college student. I'm about to accept and that's it. My birthday is in two weeks (July 1st) and what a birthday present....

So what are my plans? well improve my grades, then decide what course after this I want to take... It only took me nine years but now I can say, I am a college student; happy early birthday to me woo! I couldn't have done it without Kimmi urging me on or DBT. I still have a lot to learn with DBT but it's changed my life.

I was once told by a person I will name nameless

"Steven, you can't go to college, what? Yes I can, I can and I want to. I know Steven but it would be too difficult for you, what? Are you sure you're not getting mixed up with university? No just leave it, it would be too difficult for you, you would get laughed at."

This was when I was 16, this was straight out of school when I was getting bullied to hell... No wonder it took me only nine years.

I'm excited. 

Bye

Fuckers.

Hibernian FC : my team. Never forget your roots.

My DBT song.

This is the lyrics from the song I adopted for the song I listen to after DBT each session and I feel fantastic and believe in myself to get better and make progress and it works a treat. The song is called all together now by the farm give it a listen if you can?




Remember boy that your forefathers died
Lost in millions for a country's pride
But they never mention the trenches of Belgium
When they stopped fighting and they were one

A spirit stronger than war was at work that night
December 1914 cold, clear and bright
Countries' borders were right out of sight
When they joined together and decided not to fight

All together now
All together now
All together now
In no man's land, together

All together now
All together now
All together now
In no man's land, together

The same old story again
All those tears shed in vain
Nothing learnt and nothing gained
Only hope remains

All together now
All together now
All together now
In no man's land, together

All together now
All together now
All together now
In no man's land, together

All together now
All together now
All together now

In no man's land, together

My heart was broken, my heart was broken
Sorrow Sorrow Sorrow Sorrow
My heart was broken, my heart was broken

You saw it, You claimed it
You touched it, You saved it

My tears are drying, my tears are drying
Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you
My tears are drying, my tears are drying

Your beauty and kindness
Made tears clear my blindness

While I'm worth my room on this earth
I will be with you
While the Chief, puts sunshine on Leith
I'll thank Him for His work
And your birth and my birth.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

My heart was broken, my heart was broken
Sorrow Sorrow Sorrow Sorrow
My heart was broken, my heart was broken

You saw it, You claimed it
You touched it, You saved it

While I'm worth my room on this earth
I will be with you
While the Chief, puts sunshine on Leith
I'll thank Him for His work
And your birth and my birth.

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

This.....

I think I done the unthinkable... I've came so far from years ago... 

This

I wanted to announce this before I went...

But I have an interview for college today. Yes that's right I'm going to try to go to college. The course I'm studying? Adult learning into education. I'm going to get education under my belt sharpen up and see what courses I like the idea of.... 

I have to say, this wouldn't have been possible without me in DBT. It's opened me up and gave me so much help. Not going to college, running away, hurting people is apart of my avoidant behaviour... So I'm using opposite action... So I have an appointment with Joanne at 10am then my appointment with college is at two... I need to get a train... It's fine though it's only ten minutes... 

Kim told me to make her proud. I will, wish me luck? 

Fuckers.

I'm feeling sad.

Hey guys, just feeling sad right now... No reason... Just.... Yeah... Sad Stevie..