I am Ready.

I bought myself a season ticket for Hibs, (Meaning i get to see every home game in person this season) and i went to the first game of the cup last week, and hibs lost 6-2.. not good... but you know what, we are fighting Rangers FC to win the league to get promoted to Scotlands biggest football league... and to be honest with You, the reason I bought the season ticket was because of the video i have posted... it honestly made me want to buy one and i have no regrets, i love going to football games, seeing the skill, goals, passion, anger, fear, joy and happiness, all one singing together and hoping for a goal to win the game, the next cup game is on saturday, i bought my ticket, can't wait for the new season, check the video out, it gives me goosebumps.

New flat, Dalkeith.

So Dalkeith is going well

It's a small town outside of Edinburgh, ten minutes on a bus from my parents house... 15 away from Edinburgh town centre... 

I wanted to share some photos. Forgive the mess haha!

That's the kitchen, it's small I know but it's sweet:)

Hallway, Jacks stuff is in the right hand corner :(

The shit room....

Shower room that's where I um shave my face?

Please ignore the cover, I hate it but it's the only one we had for now lol hahahaha

View from bedroom:)

Living room, I want that chair on the left away.... Still work to be done though...

View from living room, not bad, subway, drunk people outside a pub... We miss Jack, but he's ten minutes away, I love my boy...

That's my crib, so fuck off, bye mtv.

Re fried pasta.

My mum always tells me to fry my pasta the day after, she says it's a Sicilian family secret... I always do I fry it on the frying pan in butter and it tastes lovely try it

Announcement.

So me and Kimmi moved to a new flat. We have lived together in Ayrshire for three years and to be honest I've

Missed my city. And there's so many opertunitys in Edinburgh. But the thing is... We are not living in Edinburgh. We live in the town centre of a small village outside of Edinburgh. Called Dalkeith. So it's kind of like living in Ayrshire. But my parents and niece are ten minutes on a bus... Edinburgh town centre is 15 minutes away... So that's my news. Hope people will support us:) thanks :)

Ailie Maria Perry

So today I became an uncle for the second time. Born at 6.45 am on the 14th of July. Ailie Maria Perry came into the world. Welcome little one. I'm your uncle Stevie.

Well done Richard and Aislinn.

Creative writing? #1

So I wanted to do some creative writing.. It really makes me feel better and to be honest my tip for writing let my subconscious mind take over

It's about fighting yourself against your own self doubts and keeping the tips from the ones who want to help you.

"The smell of sanity is nothing old or crazy to me. The burning of my life as wisdom comes and morals leave me.

I find it hard to trust and even though I'm growing up, I feel the paranoia slipping burning straight into me

What do I say to you when you say to me I can find myself free what do I say to me when I'm the only one to hold this key

I feel a passion coming and even though it will be ever lasting. I pour my heart onto my sleeve I forget my lines and choke it falls straight on to me

So what do I do when I am trying to find peace into the streets of the night so what do you say when I say to you I never made it through

I feel the pain alive and even though I've faught  to survive I feel an exorcist it makes me lean straight towards him

I feel for better now forever hold my peace and look straight through

I always knew I ran straight trough I always fell right down the slope. 

It's time to drop, to drop this rope

But I wanna believe that the clouds can't gather and I want to see that

My heart has so much strength is rather not no way today

But I feel alive right now

And it's so hard to survive right now

I want to take this crossing roads that lead me straight to you and I want to change my worser days believe me when i say 

I want to change, cancel all the pain, I'll see right through

I'll see right though

Il make it through

You told me so..."

You told me

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Rant time, dogs.

I am going to give you people a little piece of my fucking mind right now and I am going to explain how I see and how I feel you should treat a dog

First of all to you stuck up time warpt pieces of shit that uses e collars, spiked or any other special type of collars on your 'best friend' go die, serious get a knife and just plant it right into your jugular and twist it. Give your baws(Scottish for balls) tae(to) your 'best friend'

Second if I annoy anyone with this post then I couldn't give a fuck, i am only giving my experience and what I have learned through books, videos, articles and time with many dogs as I have been with at the dog kennels I worked with

Now that's out of the way, let's go

A dog, the greatest invasion a man has ever made? Yes dogs have been designed and bred by US people. We have defined their genetics tondo the jobs we needed. The domestic dog shares 96.6% of their DNA with wolves. Does that make them the same as Mr wolf? Does it fuck

Back in the day when man had no weopens (guns, chainsaws, fire flames) we had problems, the problems were running, we could not out run certain animals, so we looked at the wolf, the wolf is a scanvanger like a dog. And wasn't getting much luck with the whole hunting animals. So it came to the humans trash looking for scraps, man started sharing food with the wolf, the man would take the wolfs and breed them with tame wolves less aggressive so they wouldn't um kill us? After breeding we continued this and the result was a dog, the dog would catch the pray bring it back to us and we would share the spoils

Now it is very important to get away from this dominance theory. Theory being a key word, for example, I have a theory women shit glitter and play ping pong out their vag and the queen is a world champion at it? Am I right? Fuck no. Because it's my theory. Doesn't make a bit of difference. Dominance was given to captive wolves caught. Now wolves

Wolves see their 'Pack' as a family kinda like us humans... There is no dominance but respect. Anyway scientists observed captive wolves in a man made structure wolves around 30 of them fighting and killing each other for food. That automatically makes them dominant? No it doesn't. The wolves did not know each other and were terrified. 

Now for some reason people think of your dog walks ahead of you or lays on your bed it is dominance. If a dog whines for food, or if a dog pulls on a leash it is dominance. No dogs pull on a lead because they are high energy, remember high energy dogs like huskys were bred for the wild and running. Dogs whine for food because it is trying to get food because it is a scanvanger. A dog walking a head? Well would you scaled a young child for walking ahead of you. Dogs have the mental age of a three year old human. On the bed? Where would you rather sleep in a small basket or a big bed?

It has been proven with modern study's that the dominance theory does not exist in fact those sceitists admitted they got it wrong but it didn't rise to popularity like the original theory. People like cesar Milan are trying to make money of this and are doing more damage then good. It's people like that need to re program your best friend and if it doesn't work... Then they have to die thanks to human. 

A dog is loving loyal and kind. Don't tae them all by the same brush please give your dog a chance to flourish create a bond please never use any special collars or sprays or dominance. It does more harm then good. The fact is if you take the time to learn dog body language then you can build a relationship with your dog. I can honestly say at the kennels I was never ever bitten. I could have been but I knew the signals by the dog. I made friends with all the dogs.

Please just learn for yourself and love your dog not punish.

For you Jack.

Stay away.

One of my favourite ever falling in reverse songs. It has everything I can really relate to it. you need to listen to the song to appreciate.

I've watched my life flash right before my eyes just one too many times

I've graced the devil's lips, her kiss of death but somehow I'm alright

I take another pill

So I won't feel the pain

This mess I've made

I'll celebrate it on the day I die

Die,

Can't get away

Show me the truth,

I'm sick of the lies

Why must we pretend?

Repeating this over and over again

Stay away,

This is your last warning

I am not the same

Please do not adore me

It's not your fault what have I done? who can I trust?

I don't belong here

And I have lost my way again

Stay away from me

I've had this mindset that it's me against the world since I was born

Don't want your company, don't fuck with me, can't say I did not warn

I've got my back on the wall,

There ain't no person to call

I fall, I can't back up again

The only thing that I know,

I do it all on my own alone

That's how it's always been

Stay, stay, stay away

This is true, I'm telling you

Just stay, stay, stay away

Don't misconstrue, I'm warning you

http://youtu.be/jkLoUQr8r80

I 'really' miss you

Where are you?

And I'm so sorry.

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight.

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time.

And as I stared I counted

The webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides.

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason.

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

Stop this pain tonight.

Where are you?

Where...

A rose may die.

A rose may die without water, sunlight and the caringness of Mother Nature. Mother Nature is all around us and it's true grace is a gift we should never take for granted. People can take family and friends for granted, never call, never listen and never learn by their mistakes. A mistake can either be a small or a big mistake. Should we forgive? Of course. If we do not forgive one then one can never learn the meaning of true happiness. Happiness can be a small thing like holding a rock in a distant land far far away given to you by your sweetheart. A sweetheart is someone you feel you can be yourself with and can love unconditionally. When your with your sweetheart. Everything is good. Sand, water, air. But no relationship is perfect and arguments can happen. Due to passion. Which I love. I love passion, I love people standing up for what they believe in and being the odd one out. If they have a cause then they will fight it. But fighting can lead to hurtful ness. But what if you never meant to hurt the ones who you did. What if you were just deep down breaking your heart and trying not to fucking die inside? Well then...... You'd survive, and you wouldn't be a dieing rose......... You'd be a rose in bloom.

Thank you.

Had a great day.

Had a good birthday. Kimmi got me my new e cig which I love. It capes so good. It's called the Subox mini by kangertech. It's sexy 

We then went to the shopping centre and looked around. We had spare money so Kim got new clothes. But we are going shopping with my birthday money tomorrow, going to look for new skinnys

I got a cake too lol

Knee cap is still hurting

I've bruised the knee cap and well I won't lie it's down to a problem I have walking... So I'm going to physio therapy for that...

Tired now so bed time! Night night

Fuckers.