Addicted to Prison Break & Coffee..

God, GOD! I am so addicted to Prison Break right now, it's so bloody interesting...

Over the weekend there was sad news, a three year old boy from Edinburgh was murdered by his own mother.

What kind of a mother would do such a thing? seriously? I wouldn't even dream to hit my child, but to murder.

Burn in hell you dirty evil bitch.

But for the past week i have been watching prison break, driving Kimmi insane.

Next week it's my mums 50th birthday, so me and Kimmi will be travelling through to see her:)

I also owe my landlord £1,160 ! So far I've got £740, just waiting on the other £420.

Oh i havent ate in 5 days, I just can't be bothered with the hassle, fuck eating and fuck life..

Sorry, i'm just angry because of that bitch, how could she murder a little three year old:/

Gutted for him...

R.I.P Mikael...

Sleep tight pal.. xxx

Lyrics for a cunt.

You've got to reach the heavens before it's too late,
After all you're going to contemplate the temptation of hell.

Shurg you shoulders and take no responseability.
Damn you all to hell you say and you stay awake trying not to make a mistake
What's it like living ina  perfect world of your own self hazzards

What's it like to cut through your pain when all you can do is never take blame
You're falling apart and the heavens are reaching but damn you straight to hell

come and call me, i'm evil don't you know, i'm a bad seed that will make your mind bleed
- with loss of self control

never face your mistakes just lies after lies, never say sorry and never say thanks
i'm sorry but when did you commit your last crime -not.

Hate me, feel the passion grow dead and let your head feed on your lies instead

everyone is the victom no wait, that's you. what's it like living in a perfect world that you've created
- for you.

I'm wasting my time, loosing sentence's on you. go on try and live and pretend you have no clue's.

CUNT

I got called an evil person tonight.

I just got off the phone with someone, not a family member or friend, but i got told that i was evil?

Okay I know people have a little bad in them, and a little bit good.

I however do not believe I am evil... Well a little but not like Hitler or anything.

So that is my reward? for giving this person nice christmas and birthday presents and even the video servicie Netflix for free not even expecting a thank you.

I don't see the point in people saying thank you to you when you have decided to do something nice. infact i Lothe being thanked for nice stuff. it doesn't make me feel big or special....

But how in gods name am i evil? Well the person did say i was evil because i mentioned an insult that they once said to me. oh yeah and i "caggled"

Caggled? Bringing up the past?! that makes me evil, holy fuck you have something wrong with you, seriously...

Okay first of all when i am angry i raise my voice and yeah i have a visious tounge. i don't know why i just do, and secondly. Am i a female? no... Am i 300 years old? no... Am i a witch? haha no... I don't fucking caggle. what the hell?

This is the last time i do anything nice for you. you might go around and try to manipulate people into belieiving poor you, oh how bad it is for you, and bring up the past but not me, yeah i used to i used to think my life was terrible and eeryone hated me. but atleast i can fucking admit it. atleast i am stronger to admit my faults/

Lets go through my fault shall we

I care to much- that's a bad habbit of mine which i am trying to work on and i have improved...

I over think stuff - So does everyone you might say but me i go that extra mile another thing i am trying to change/

I take life to seriously - again with a couple of sambooka's i don't give a fuck

And other things...

I might have been over the top the other night but you drove me too it... I couldn't keep it in

YOU TREAT EVERYONE LIKE CRAP!!!! You don't even acknolege the people around you!!!

the other night was a volcano that last for a year and a half of knowing you, And yeah i told you that You're Family memeber has a beautiful mind and meant it. atleast i encourage 'them' to do well in life...

Go fuck yourself and move if you want to because You have done nothing for us.

It's like that old saying goe's "you know who the true people in your life is when the shit hits the fan"

People I am not over thinking this the person has done nothing, not one thing////

You might be happy with your shitty little life day after day, but as you grow older, you'll realise what you've lost, and yeah i've lost so many fucking amazing souls in my life, one in particular that i think of every day, but at least i can admitt my faults and wrong doings, you're head is so far up you're fucking arse it is unbeliving, you're actually insane. you need a shrink and some pills and some koombyah songs going on over a fucking camp fire, but instead you're a dirty little window licker who complains about toilet paper

FUCK
SHIT
CUNT
BAWBAG
FANNY
DICK
ARSE
CUNT
CUNT
CUNT
....

BINT. (google it ya english cunt.)

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Moving swiftly on, that feels better to get that out in the open, well thats what this blog is about, to make yourself feel better and look back on your life...


Anyway that's this rant over, to my followings, i love you and to the peeping tom's who just googled cunt, dick, and shit, who got directed to this page. fuck you too you pervy cunt ;D

BYE.

Christmas & New Year ( Hogmony to Scottish people )

So I haven't really been updating my blog lately, just due to the fact that i am a lazy bastard and can't be doing with the mind numbing crap on writing somthing interesting when in reality i'm just not upto it lol.

Excuse me for the spelling mistakes, i haven't had sleep tonight but i wanted to let people know how my christmas went and new year

so where to start? well Kimberley and I spent christmas apart this year which was sad but was good kind of. She went to Irvine and i went to Edinburgh, Edinburgh and Irvine are around 70 miles apart so from the west coast of Scotland to the east coast of Scotland. Anyway, we made sure we cleaned the whole house before we left. because a messy home isn't a nice thing to come home too after travelling for around 2 and a half hours on a small crampted bus...

So after cleaning the house we packed our stuff and kimmi's dad picked her up and i got the bus to Edinburgh.

I arrived in Edinburgh and the bus to my parents house broke down but restarted again whilest i was walking home... yeah 20 minutes in the cold. how fun... anyway i arrived home and my dad made me a cup of tea to warm me up. we chatted and just watched tele (mum was working)

I actually got along with Andrew for once and we were chatting away and laughing and joking. I have realised Andrew has a very personal sense of homour. it's like he makes fun of you your faults but he does take it too far and for once i just didn't take his jokes personally because he didn't mean them in a bad way.

So christmas came the following day and we opned presents the family and it was really nice. I have and my brother have always been spoiled for christmas's and birthdays got whatever we wanted plus an extra £400 but this year no for obvious reasons.

And i knew it would be like this but to be quite honest. i got a better present i got the best christmas present ever. that no money or savings or vouchers could buy. i got my old dad back!!! That's all i wanted...

He sounded a lot better i mean his voice was more clear. he was making jokes and being bossy and shouting at Jack, and he looked a lot better aswell. I was just so happy....

Kimmi came over on the 28th, because her brothers 18th birthday was on the 26th and obviously couldn't miss that big day, we got him a really nice canvas painting and by the way on to gifts...

last year i felt so shitty because i could hardly afford any gifts not even gifts for Kimmi, so i made a promise last year to myself. i would never feel this bad again. so what happend was i saved and saved and saved. a christmas bank that you have to open with a can opener. i put my extra £1's £2's and Ten pound and twenty pound notes in! i saved £200 ! and i always had money coming through so i made sure i got everybody a good christmas present, i spent around £120 on kimmi little presents because people appreciate the little thing rather then a big bar of gold, although a big bar of gold would be nice...

I got my dad coins from his childhood, a book on his favourite band (black Sabbath), World war 2 coins. a voucher for a hardware store, and lots of small presents,

my mum i got, bath soaps, a nurse's watch, bracelets, perfume and other things

I got andrew and kirsty and richard things but im far too tired to write this out lol but they were good

i made sure i got everyone somthing and a card. i spent around £400 on presents

leading upto new year the whole family and kimmi and i went out for a meal to celebrate my dads 60th. it was really good and i told andrew i would pay half for his cake and half for my dads meal, so it just felt good spending money on more then one person rather then me or kimmi. just seeing there face glow so to speak was a good feeling... anyway we brought in the bells and drank and watched the fireworks from my brothers new house (my grandads old house which he is buying of my dad) he and my sister in law are spending money on reneovating it to make it all nice.. so we watched the fire works from the window and it was great! and when we walked in to 42 to bring in the new year i saw the best thing ever. my dad had a little shot of whisky to bring in the new year.. it felt so great seeing that!

Also I'm taking this with a pinch of salt because maybe my dad isn't trying to let people worry and is protecting them but he told me and in another conversation with my mum that he doesn't have c*ncer and its gone.... but like i said im taking that with a pinch of salt... i won't get my hopes up... im just appreciating having him around and my family...

anyway after we got home we went to our neibours party (our old flat) and they had a onsie party LOL it was actually cool getting drunk in a onsie, it was a batman one:D i don't even like batman, yeah fuck you batman fans ! nah only joking meh... im more of a wonder woman man.... god i sounded gay there... anyway before the party we went to see alladin at the panto, richard got me and kimmi tickets, kimmi's seat was behind a big poll so i said kimmi get up come with me, she came with me and i spoke to the manager and he moved us to better seats... actually front row seats... good eh?!

The best moments of 2013 had to be My dad getting the good news.. Moving again into a better flat with kimmi... kimmi's 21st party, meeting new people, even if half are wankers ! and my coffee machine <3

Anyway i better go now cause' i feel like a fucking zombie, no joke honest! anyway i hope YOU had a great christmas and a great new year! :)