Mocha coffee and money

Rest in peace

Rest in peace Grandad. I miss you everyday. Thank you for raising me <3

No Internet:(

So upstairs is where our Internet router is. And we have an engineer coming this Thursday to turn on our new homes telephone line... We were going to use the Internet upstairs but the electricity has ran out and I don't want to put money in it because new neighbours might get free electricity because of me so it's just good old fashion tv ....

Rolling stone

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone and I'm in the zone

Don't let me fall, just let me know when we'll make it through

I got that shit that you can't bump in your car

Steady lurkin' on my enemies to settle the score

I am never backin' down until the day that I die

And I don't give a fuck about no hater on my life

I am the best as what I do and I will always prevail

And overcome all obstacles while walkin' through hell

And if you gotta problem now's the time to speak up

Because I'm blowing up I'm never gonna stop

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone and I'm in the zone

Don't let me fall just let me know when we'll make it through

No matter what the price may be, for clarity I'll make it home

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone

I spit the fire and I'm killin' the track

Ambitious from how many knifes are stabbed in my back

And if you think you know me then you're probably wrong

I spill my heart and soul so lock and load and keep bringin' it on

I got an anger that runs deep in my blood

And I'm always stayin' true reppin the city I'm from

And if you gotta problem now's the time to speak up

Cause I'm blowing up, I'm never gonna stop

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone and I'm in the zone

Don't let me fall, just let me know when we'll make it through

No matter what the price may be, for clarity I'll make it home

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone

Don't get it twisted, ballistic, characteristics when I rip shit intricate

Visions of infinite wisdom empirical spiritual lyrical very cool synonyms

In layman's terms I am the best you must agree

I got that white boy swagger rappin' right down to a T

I got my hand up on the throttle holdin' up a broken bottle

Ready to cut you up and gut you like a fucking avocado

Desperado on the track in fact if I am gone tomorrow

Then my motto is no sorrow no apologies just karma

Don't get it twisted and delete me off your friends list

Stayin' busy tweeting hatred at me all up in my business

I'm getting kicks outta this shit like it was my sneakers

And the game fears me like a motherfucking wifebeater

Just let me go, on my own again, a rolling stone, I'm in the zone, yeah

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone and I'm in the zone

Don't let me fall, just let me know when we'll make it through

No matter what the price may be, for clarity I'll make it home

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone and I'm in the zone

Don't let me fall, just let me know when we'll make it through

No matter what the price may be, for clarity I'll make it home

Just let me go, I'm on my own, a rolling stone

What music means to me.

Everyone in the world says music saves them and music keeps them away from insanity. What does music mean to me? It allows me to express myself. I have so many thoughts going around in my head like a busy bee looking for some flowers to fertilise. Okay I could have gave a better example there. But that's the thing, I thought of sexy music right there and it made me smile. Music for me it can also make me happy, sad, angry and determined. I am careful when it comes to music and won't just listen to chart music because it has a good beat. But bands for me connect with me and its like they are singing it especially for me I just shut my eyes and focus on the lyrics or sometimes just the drums and guitar and that makes me appreciate music even more. Nobody is a bad lyricist. You could even write a song it's just like telling a story with rhyming words. I dare you to write a song next time you are feeling blue. Because I bet you it will make you just a little bit better. Because you heard your sorrow structured into sound. Good morning world. Time for a coffee.

Drifter.

As I'm thrown into an empty room, or should I say a box.

I try to turn around to leave but the door is slammed and locked.

So I sit here and I think about all the evil things I've done.

I lost where I was goin', 'cause I forgot where I came from.

I surrender,

Put my weapons down.

I can't remember,

What I'm doing in this town.

It's time for me to pack my bags,

I will always be alone.

The only thing I've ever known,

Is out there on the road.

I'm a drifter.

I'm a drifter.

Now every time I look straight into my father's eyes.

I see how hurt and broken down he is from all the times.

He had to watch the son he raised follow in his steps.

The only option that he ever had was to hope for the best

I surrender,

Put my weapons down.

I can't remember,

What I'm doing in this town.

It's time for me to pack my bags,

I will always be alone.

The only thing I've ever known,

Is out there on the road.

My faith is weak, my soul is bound.

This lonely road I travel down.

I scrape my feet, this jagged ground.

The cuts run deep into me now.

Mother oh, why aren't you here?

So young I was, you disappeared.

I know the truth is ugly, did you truly ever love me?

I surrender,

Curse my mother's soul.

I still miss her,

No matter where I go.

It's time for me to pack my bags, I will always be alone.

The only thing I've ever known, is a broken home.

Richard visiting

So my brother Richard will be coming here for six days. And he doesn't know about my new home. So it will be a nice Surprise for him. I will tell him I am still living Upstairs and when he sees that there is nothing theres will act like I was robbed like what me and Kimmi done to Robyn.. And she believed us lol. Then after richard is gone my mum will come visit and do the same to her lol. Right now I'm watching Netflix... Signing the lease tomorrow for this place so gotta get up early and do signings :) anyway going to bed night night

American Netflix

Fuck yeah. I can get the American version of Netflix on my xbox now! American dad, family guy! Malcolm in the middle and lots and lots of movies. USA USA USA!

On our way to the shows

Me and Kimmi are away to Irvine to go on the rides. I'm scared but excited ... Yay!

Really want tattoos

But not sure what to get. Scared people will think its stupid or if I regret it okay take away regret. It will be special to me but just scared in case it looks silly:( I was looking to get something Asian/Mayan.. There designs are always cool!

Watching a horror

Watching all the horror movies on Netflix... Starting with the tattooist!

Kim has ran out the room she doesn't like horrors :(

Wow that was.. Bad timing to take a photo hahaha!

Guess what?

"I can't believe I'm standing here at all, I can't believe I made it this far I'm away with a smile on my face to the top and I'm not falling off"

I'm truly smiling:)

I'm really happy

Announcement on Steven Gordon Perry.

I have an announcement to make. I wanted to make a video about this.

But I feel that I can express myself with words written rather then them being spoken.

I have made a new step in my life and want the people who read this blog. Know. First of all I am inviting you into my life when I write a blog. A window so to speak. 

Living with your girlfriend or boyfriend opens your eyes how the world really works. It opens your eyes to opertunitys and new goals. Goal 1 has been done. I got a flat and lived within my means. Did not over spend and did not ask for a penny of anybody. Including my family and friends. And stood on my own two feet. Ever since I met Kimberley my girlfriend she helped me go from a boy to a man.

I am proud to say that I have bought everything in my flat. I have saved and saved my hard earned monies to get everything you see from the following photos. It has been hard not getting mummy and daddy to wipe my arse and pay for the stuff I want/wanted. Unlike some assholes who stay around Ayr and have cars from mum and dad.

My dad has and will always have cancer. Is he on the mend? You better believe it. Seeing your hero go from super strong superman. To basically a skeleton is hard. Seeing him getting feed through his stomach is hard too but not having my best friend Joanna to talk to is harder. I have Kimmi who I love. And helped me a lot but my bestie has cared and still does I hope I know you might be reading this and I am grateful. But this isn't a bitch at you. This is a thank you you gave me so much more then a friendship. you made me find out something about myself which i will tell you privately when you want to know one day and thank you  you  for giving me that kick up the ass I needed in order to progress and succeed in life. I carry your wisdom and spirit with me everywhere and hope one day we can chat one day. But for now I will stick with what you wanted and respect your privacy as a human being an stand back and look on with pride. Pride at how you have found such an inspiring person and how you can hold down two jobs at once. Yeah that's my best friend. A grafter. Someone who could sit on their arse and claim benefits and get free money. My dad could have done that. Did he? No. He focused on getting better and he has been lifting weights to get his strength back and I even helped him build a shed. We had a true father son moment and I was honoured to help him. This post is for everyone that loves me. Not just an amazing girlfriend or an ex or some crazy bitch following me everyday (believe me I've had that before) but for everyone who loves, loved me for me... I hope I have made you proud. I make £960 a month, rent is £580 a month. Gas, electricity is £40. And food is £100. The rest ? I make sure I pay on the 12th of every month £100 a month to my mum and dad. My dad is working again but he makes £280 a month and my mother is on half wages . You see when you leave your family and move to the other side of the country the love and response ability are still with you. That is why I carry Joanna's philosophy of life and my fathers pride with me. And my mother? I take her manners. I will never let my family struggle and I will never take from those who have nothing and if I want something I make sure I get it. I make sure I have food on the table and Heat in the heaters. I guess the old me was someone that hated people for no reasons and acted on impulses. I'm still the old crazy Stevie. But grew up. I got my backup plan:)... Yep. And my next goal? You'll all see that in a few months. 

So my announcement is I have moved away with Kimmi. Not too far.. Downstairs. Bigger house. Bigger everything.... I did it for you all I told you I would make you all proud. Thanks for reading.

Did I mention I have a pool table lol?

Lmao

Bye friendship!

Heartbroken, gutted & maybe a little bit mad.

Someone very special to me once said "you'll never find a friend as good as me, because they will not like you for who you really are" I know you'd might be reading this. So thank you for telling me this. You have just been proven correct

I'm just numb to be honest and to the person who betrayed me? Why? I let you in my life. I told you how I thought you were a good friend. I just wanted one little friend. Just one? I don't want friends at the moment because it hurts when they either do what you have done  or I ruin the friendship...

I never thought you would betray me... I guess this is how the other person felt when I betrayed them... When I took there trust and a bit of their heart and shat on it... To the other person reading this I'm sorry once again... I was and still am a foolish man.. With his head up his arse always expecting too much from people and especially from you. I'm sorry for lieing... This is karma isnt it? :(

I'm just upset it will heal... To the ex friend who betrayed me ; thanks

To the person I hurt ; I'm a fuckup I know but I still am trying to make you proud and there's not a day I think of you and I am god honestly so proud at the life you are building with a gentleman.

Oh yeah in other news there's going to be a video in here soon stay tuned