My pledge

For you daddy, I promise to tell you this everyday I love you so much, you are my hero and my superman, you can do anything and I love you so much, you are a fighter <3… when you battled cancer..... And as you still do I play this song for you and I CRY everyday for you because the words are so true for me, I love you Daddy... Please don't leave me ? Xx

Hung over FML

So Kim's party was last night pulled an all nighter and got two hours sleep! On my way home cause I really want sleep in my bed and then back to Irvine later, had a fantastic night! Was meant to be coming through with the cake with kimmis dad but decided at the last minute it would only be right if it was her mum too! So that was a nice touch, danced to Loch Lomond by run rig was beautiful we were both in a circle and it was perfect, drank a lot of carlsberg and RUM!!! Haha now to pass out on this bus, did I mention my mouth is like an ashtray?! Byeee

Bus!

On my way home, tired, hate shopping lol

Wow

Remember that bench? An old man sat next to me and told me him growing up, he was a really interesting guy, just shows if you take the time and respect your elders you find out they are actually really cool and interesting nice guy:)

Waiting

Sitting here waiting for Kim's dad to show up, we are going shopping for her party this Saturday.... Did I mention I'm in a shit hole?! Yep Irvine.... I've been to some bad places but Irvine is just a hole I wanna go home to Ayr :(... Also I'm on a bench and random people are siting next to me... Personal space?! Nope it's Irvine :/

Poetry?

I long to inspire a simple mind and take you all onto a journey where you can view the beautiful sky's as they all burst into life, I wait to hear and see a sound calling from beyond with the almost calming sound that will send signals to my body where the state of relaxation is set free all around my veins, I dream to be at my calmest point where there are no alarm bells signalling but hearing the birds above as I have had enough of mornings winter air. I long to travel and hear water pour as I feel the roots around my skin and lay at peace with this colourful world, you may not know it but I am at my best when I am always second guessing my life choices and lessons. I wait for summer to fall and who knows maybe I will have it all ?

This is a story

This is a story about a man who self destructed his life and dreams, it started from when he was around 11 years old, his stable role model had to leave and he didn't know who to look upto. He tried looking up to other people but he was not happy with them and felt they couldn't compare to his previous role model. He also went from fixation to fixation. Fixating on country's, languages, and even football. He became distant with the word at age 12 trying to fend for himself an creating his own safe place, but he couldn't create a safe place so went through the hell until age 14 where he made a 'friend' he gave his trust to this person and even heart they broke it and ran by age 17 he was as confused as before and started feeling angst with the world. Not knowing how to cope he his and was to scared to be who he wanted to be. But one day he decided he wanted a place in life and wanted to fit in. He turned on his radio and listened to the music around him. It gript on to him and he got transformed from someone who didn't know his place to someone who felt he belonged. By age 20 he was still this shy crazed hyper active bitch. Who clinched to people for happiness but after losing another friend and getting upset he decided to change. For the better... To be continued or is it ?

Thanks mum !!

Look what my mum knitted for me !!

Thanks mum !!

Look what my mum knitted for me !!

I smile for you

I smile because you are happier
:)

Mother's Day

So today is Mother's Day, I woke up really early and went to the shops... Well dad gave me a lift. Because its been snowing here.. Jesus it's colllllld,I got my mum flowers, chocolates and Betty boop wine glasses earings and a bracelet .... I'm staying here till Thursday to spend time with the family. And it's football day, hibs are playing hearts so I will watch this with mum and dad, I got a few pics of snow and jack lol :) bye for now

Edinburgh

Ze welsh are here lol

Hahaha

AA

Fucking love this band <3

Accent

I keep getting told my accent has hanged and I've lost my Edinburgh accent... I hope not god lmao...

En route à edinbourg!

Just relaxing listening to music on the bus to Edinburgh to spend time with my family! It's also Mother's Day tomorrow so I'm excited for my mum to see her gifts ! Here are a few pictures too! Oh and I won't see Kim for five days sucks :( and il miss her :( and fuck the bus is going a different way because of the Scotland rugby game... Fucking rugby -_- nice warm bus though

Bye for now people

Look at Bailey lol

You've got a pussy!

I got an iPhone !

So today I got the iPhone4s it's really good. I also went out with Kimmi, Jono and Kevin we watched videos and ordered Chinese so I had a good day ! Going to Edinburgh on Saturday for Mother's Day and Kimmi is going trough to Irvine ! Going to miss her also thanks for helping me and getting me the iPhone Kimmi lol here is a few pics from tonight

Now to play some black ops 2 and off to bed !

Thank you, I wished on a star

I am so happy I am crying and shaking with happiness, My Father has beaten Cancer on national cancer day, it's a miracle I am so greatful and happy and I admire how strong he has been for the past year. Thank you to everyone who has supported me my beautiful girlfriend and my friends family and even landlord. Thank you god, grandad.. Allah. My eight months of hell is over!!!!!!!!! Thank you