Tuesday, 22 November 2011
Sunday, 20 November 2011
Just a little thought
I feel a bit empty inside, trust never comes easy for me, but when i get it ill be happy, i feel really lonely, rejected, scard maybe? i guess im just over reacting, but it seems like a lot of people have forgotton me.. what to do? do i just keep silent and keep myself to myself, hoping things can get better? or do i just carry on?
anyway look what this bitch said to me... (this has nothing to do with what i've said above btw, i just liked my loyalty lol)
I tried being nice to say that i wanted her to be a friend -___-
She's a dumb fuck..
oh yeah i found an old picture of me lol
anyway i hope to get out my bad sad mood
going to exercise..
who am i kidden, futurarma lol
night all
Friday, 18 November 2011
Writing
"so throw the world a smile and wonder on, so give it all you've got it'll be a lesson never learned, the truth whispers to you like a sonet of hope, with all thats gone on, youll cut free sourounding you each night and day, and youll have the strengh to carry on until your final day"
old video of me
here is an old old old video of me, and an ex, look how short my hair is ! please excuse the gay music
Thursday, 17 November 2011
Wednesday, 16 November 2011
Free style lyrics !
okay i am just going to write lyrics from the top of my head
ok lets go!
its the middle of the night and you hear a certain sound, you feeling trapt and dazed as you are under ground
shadows creep above and your searching for your love, your bodys in tact but you can't swallow the facts
the trees start to grow and you beg for more, whatever happens and can never be rewound, this coffin is closing and your going under ground
your starting to scratch of the souloution to your problems, with a hint of jealousy, you always needed to be free
but i hold your key, i pull your srings, i'll always be the one who commits to your sins
now your running ahead and leaving all for dead, now your going insane with this lasting ever pain all inside your head
wide awake on attack, fearing to look back, that you might attracht these demons creeping suddenly, whatever may happen and it's a time to make it now, your going to be wishing your feet are leaving the ground
pins drop on the floor and you've got to walk home, but you've always been searching and yet you have to sitll moarn,
shadows darken with a taste of a glass, making sure youll always be in your mask, creative, ever lasting mis contraction is aware of the deeds
i planted the evil seeds to make you whole again, to make you fear and never hear all the demons inside my head
im walking free, im belonging to start and see and hear and sound while my bottle raises and my clouds gather itl be a life long test of love and ever after
ti hear the sounds so far away this game is mines and its all i have to say
ok lets go!
its the middle of the night and you hear a certain sound, you feeling trapt and dazed as you are under ground
shadows creep above and your searching for your love, your bodys in tact but you can't swallow the facts
the trees start to grow and you beg for more, whatever happens and can never be rewound, this coffin is closing and your going under ground
your starting to scratch of the souloution to your problems, with a hint of jealousy, you always needed to be free
but i hold your key, i pull your srings, i'll always be the one who commits to your sins
now your running ahead and leaving all for dead, now your going insane with this lasting ever pain all inside your head
wide awake on attack, fearing to look back, that you might attracht these demons creeping suddenly, whatever may happen and it's a time to make it now, your going to be wishing your feet are leaving the ground
pins drop on the floor and you've got to walk home, but you've always been searching and yet you have to sitll moarn,
shadows darken with a taste of a glass, making sure youll always be in your mask, creative, ever lasting mis contraction is aware of the deeds
i planted the evil seeds to make you whole again, to make you fear and never hear all the demons inside my head
im walking free, im belonging to start and see and hear and sound while my bottle raises and my clouds gather itl be a life long test of love and ever after
ti hear the sounds so far away this game is mines and its all i have to say
Tuesday, 15 November 2011
busy busy busy week ahead !
So this week is going to be mother fucking busy ! grrr ! tomorow i will go to the airport and change my money from this
to this
Fun right?
so i won't be tempted to waste all my money on shit before i go to Sweeeeeeeeedon!
Anywayssss...
Right now i am in my room sitting on my chair with Jacky by my side, he is asleep on my bed, i know you should never let a dog sleep on your bed, but i don't want him feeling lonely, plus i like having him around :)
HAHA!
I'm so nervous in a way, but in a good way and a bad way lol
I love planes, but i don't love the heights they scare me:(
but i am excited to see Martina <3 can't wait for cuddles and kisses ;)
Yayyyy
But in other news i don't think i can get on my other "fan" facebook, since they are saying they will send a code to my phone (a phone i dont use) i cant see the code, i think i burnt that phone woopsLOL
so no more 5000 friends
It feels good actually it really does in a way im happy:) i dont need 5000 friends when ive got the people i need in my life:)
and i know what i am so haha its all good:)
il update more soon !
oh yeah and to Joanna, stay strong, your better then them all, let them talk, just laugh, your a hard worker and if they cant see them why bother wasting time and energy?
it takes more muscle to have a sad face then a smiley, so be lazy and smile:D
<3
byeeee
Fun right?
so i won't be tempted to waste all my money on shit before i go to Sweeeeeeeeedon!
Anywayssss...
Right now i am in my room sitting on my chair with Jacky by my side, he is asleep on my bed, i know you should never let a dog sleep on your bed, but i don't want him feeling lonely, plus i like having him around :)
HAHA!
I'm so nervous in a way, but in a good way and a bad way lol
I love planes, but i don't love the heights they scare me:(
but i am excited to see Martina <3 can't wait for cuddles and kisses ;)
Yayyyy
But in other news i don't think i can get on my other "fan" facebook, since they are saying they will send a code to my phone (a phone i dont use) i cant see the code, i think i burnt that phone woopsLOL
It feels good actually it really does in a way im happy:) i dont need 5000 friends when ive got the people i need in my life:)
and i know what i am so haha its all good:)
il update more soon !
oh yeah and to Joanna, stay strong, your better then them all, let them talk, just laugh, your a hard worker and if they cant see them why bother wasting time and energy?
it takes more muscle to have a sad face then a smiley, so be lazy and smile:D
<3
byeeee
Monday, 14 November 2011
this makes me sad:(
this is why i love dogs.... so sad:( and the sad thing is, they thought he forgot about his owner and moved on with his life...
The many adventures of Joanna !!
Don't worry, you can always say nice video to her on her blog : www.asiandog.blogspot.com
She is my best friend and i love her <3 =D
She is my best friend and i love her <3 =D
Im going to make this an amazing update !
Hi everyone it's me ! it's me Stevie look !
Joanna keeps on making me think of this song !
They have ba haircuts hahahaha
but yes did u like the updation, i hope u fucking did !
Btw be ready for lots of pictures from Sweden;) im going next week
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
HII!!!
Well well well, i feel like posting videos speaking about the future and bring down a few of my enenmies care to join me?
Look it's me when i was 13 LOL haha don't ask what the video is about i think it was to do with some Youtube channel i sub'd haha !
more videos ?
okay, okay don't rush me dammit
...
Well since the previous video is uploading i guess i will have to talk?
Well Joanna is going to make me a banner soon and i can't wait her banners are fun:D
Martina helped me out with my backround? do you like? i do! a part from the cutest blog on the block thing haha gayyyy
but yes yes anyway video time
I took a new picture yesterday ! wanna see ! i totally tried to rip off Ronnie Radke haha !
lloook
Joanna keeps on making me think of this song !
They have ba haircuts hahahaha
but yes did u like the updation, i hope u fucking did !
Btw be ready for lots of pictures from Sweden;) im going next week
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Sunday, 13 November 2011
They say telling it all is the start of something, something when you begin to fall.
So i am sorry that i haven't updated my blog as much as i would like to but i guess i have not just had the motivation to get to grips with life at the moment lol. I am feeling strange and awkward feelings, no my body isn't going through the change haha ! but i have been thinking of my past so what im going to do is, just say the following to get it off my chest because i feel i have the right and i need to get this told
Person number one, I think you know what you done in the end to me was horrible and i think a part of you wants to bury your head in the sand and ignore all responseability of hurting me, but one day you will, one day you'll see that i tried everything for that life but it wasn't good enough for you, so you got confused and didn't know what to do, you really fucked my head and heart about, but i want to say thank you, thank you for giving me this experiance to adapt to my souroundings, i still think of our past our long long past, what we done and how we got to where we are now, and i know i need to forget you, but i guess i never ever will because you made a mark upon me that will last forever and i know i done the same, but im not going to say i was great but you know i was a little bit better then you, just saying, rot in hell
person number two: where do i start with you, well thank you actually, thank you for giving me the time to have fun and joy, you know it was good while it lasted, but all good things come to an end, i have nothing really to say to you, but grow up?
person number 3, you can try as hard as you can, but youll never be me, im better then you
all i can do now is look to the future ahead of me, im going to Sweden next week to be with my love:) i can't wait
i get to see my bestfriend too! should be fun fun i get to go on a plane lol
no idea how il make it to malmo alive tho LOL
bye!!!!!!!!
Person number one, I think you know what you done in the end to me was horrible and i think a part of you wants to bury your head in the sand and ignore all responseability of hurting me, but one day you will, one day you'll see that i tried everything for that life but it wasn't good enough for you, so you got confused and didn't know what to do, you really fucked my head and heart about, but i want to say thank you, thank you for giving me this experiance to adapt to my souroundings, i still think of our past our long long past, what we done and how we got to where we are now, and i know i need to forget you, but i guess i never ever will because you made a mark upon me that will last forever and i know i done the same, but im not going to say i was great but you know i was a little bit better then you, just saying, rot in hell
person number two: where do i start with you, well thank you actually, thank you for giving me the time to have fun and joy, you know it was good while it lasted, but all good things come to an end, i have nothing really to say to you, but grow up?
person number 3, you can try as hard as you can, but youll never be me, im better then you
all i can do now is look to the future ahead of me, im going to Sweden next week to be with my love:) i can't wait
i get to see my bestfriend too! should be fun fun i get to go on a plane lol
no idea how il make it to malmo alive tho LOL
bye!!!!!!!!
Thursday, 10 November 2011
Sunday, 6 November 2011
Thursday, 3 November 2011
updation
Hello there blog, how are you? i hope you (my readers) have all been swell.
Once again i am sorry i haven't been updating as much, i just don't know what to write
I'm doing good i guess, Exciting stuff ahead, i'm going to my uncles house warming party on the 19th, which should be nice, i enjoy partys, lol!
And oh yeah i booked my flight to Sweden today ! I'm going to Gothenburg, then getting a bus or train to malmo then i'll meet martina, spend sometime with her and then we are off to orebro to see Joanna
and itl be so much fun, i'm so excited, Sweden here i come woo !
I also took a new picture !
i like it
lalalalala
Once again i am sorry i haven't been updating as much, i just don't know what to write
I'm doing good i guess, Exciting stuff ahead, i'm going to my uncles house warming party on the 19th, which should be nice, i enjoy partys, lol!
And oh yeah i booked my flight to Sweden today ! I'm going to Gothenburg, then getting a bus or train to malmo then i'll meet martina, spend sometime with her and then we are off to orebro to see Joanna
and itl be so much fun, i'm so excited, Sweden here i come woo !
I also took a new picture !
i like it
lalalalala